Death has a way of making you stand still and evaluate your life. 

That’s what happened to me this past week as I received the news of a dear friend of mine’s passing. I was crushed. It felt like this week I was existing, but the passing of my friend had me sit and evaluate what I would want my life to be going forward. 

We all fight battles that no one really knows about, and sometimes, we come across as defensive and perhaps even angry because all our lives, that’s what we had to do: fight for everything and not back down. 

My friend Jules’s death got me into a space where I resolved that I needed to let things go; I needed to live my life every day for purpose and on purpose. I must live like there is no tomorrow. 

I was looking around me and reflecting on where I was when I was 33 years old. What was I doing? I was merely existing, and I was an angry bird. Here she was, leaving us at 33, having impacted so many lives. 

One big lesson I learned this past week is to really evaluate the battles I want to fight, let things be, and allow God’s. I want to will to be done allow Him to work things out, and surrender it all to Him while I keep my peace. 

Death has a way of waking us up. The question is, will we pay attention and wake up? 

All my love, 

Zen